Hi.

Cheers to my first post, I guess you could call this my personal diary, personal public diary. Although I can't really say this is the juiciest thing that'll ever be put out there. No complicated love triangles, back- stabbing bitchtastic bffs or even eccentric parents. But I do have a lot to say, things that I don't really say to others. I don't know why, I guess it's easier not too-
Oh excuse my manners! getting all deep even before introductions. How rude.
My name is rae or ray, which ever you prefer (I just had to google that - perfer or prefer? Google can probably fix anything and everything) I'm a senior in high school, not my most beloved place to be but not the worst. Definitely not as bad as on TV. I Have a couple solid friends and then a mob of fake ones, weeding them out took four years of my high school career. I plan on retiring it next year. I'm fairly passive letting life float along, which works fine except when you let it pass you by too fast. I've never had a boyfriend, I've had 'things' which maybe left me a bit bitter... Was I not GF material? That would be a question for later, it's too late to feel sorry for myself. Their are a few guys that have caught my eye but unfortunately I have yet to catch theirs, Eyeballs are really slippery...
My friend Cathy just broke up with her bf of two years, Adam. *gasp* well at least I did. I just don't get it though when I asked her why she started babbling about it 'not being the same' and so I asked her if she loved him still and she said 'Of course!'
Isn't love just love? why make it more complicated? Obviously I don't understand.
I give it a week and they'll be back together.
Now my friend Eve on the other hand is not going love-confused but sex-confused. Shes hooked on this guy who's 7 years older, doesn't have a job, smokes weed and wants in her pants. Like holy carpola does she not see the red flags, they're pretty vibrant. She's debating whether to give the big V to him... honestly it's a no brainer but apparently it's tougher than just saying no... Apparently.
As for me I am single and way too shy to mingle. I wish i could buy confidence and no alcohol doesn't count because then I would be an alcoholic.
 -RP